I awoke to the following post, and it genuinely sparked my curiosity, as I am one of those people that worships only because I prefer to receive reward rather than punishment in the event that there is, in fact, an afterlife.
“If we worship God because we are afraid of punishment and Hell, then we are not worshipping God at all. If we worship God because we hope to receive a reward now and in the future an entry to Heaven, then we are not worshipping God at all.”
Where does that leave those of us who, for biologically complex reasons, have brains incapable of “feeling” and emotion? Are we then doomed as a result of having been created incapable of having a real relationship with an intangible force as we possess only logic and reason, with no satisfactory spiritual-emotional abilities? For me, I worship only because it is what my father pounded into me. I neither see nor feel anything spiritually. But I do it to honour my father, and because I was taught that it is right. Due to the way the Divine saw fit to create me, I am incapable of truly believing in the unseen. The emotions that I do feel are 1. content, and 2. malcontent. I see in black and white with no shades of grey. I follow logic and emotion.
I am unencumbered by the emotional slavery that leads so many to clam to be of faith and yet follow their own whims while attempting to justify it with the holy book whose rules they are breaking. I do exactly what the faith I follow requires of me. Always. Without any deviation. But I don’t feel, and I don’t truly believe. I act only because following the rules makes me a better person, and because if it turns out that there is an afterlife (and I say if because I have in fact, died before, and there was nothing. I simply ceased to exist until I was revived. Similar to going to sleep without any dreams, and awaking.), I don’t want to suffer in it as well.
Where does that leave me?